This is how I express my soul. Shuffling is an expression of what I feel inside, what I cant express in words I express in dance.
Issues
Tired of living the way I am
Exhausted from having to cram
A lie into every sentence
Every word, like its my dependence
To hide the truth from you all
Cause I know you’re like a fragile doll
I know you can’t handle it
I know you wouldn’t understand a single bit
You’d be the one putting me down
Making me stumble over everything like a clown
Have I mentioned how you hold my past
Like a dead weight on me that you’re ready to cast
Into the dark ocean
Only there’s no hope no helpful potion
That can relieve me from my exile
That stands scripted like a file
That holds my future in its grasp
And it makes every breathe a dreadful rasp
Because I know my lies are eating away
And the feelings get worse everyday
I’m tired of this bull
It’s making my life dull
I’m tired of hiding my friends from your eye
Cause when I lie it makes me wanna die
I wish I could just open up to
You and tell you the truth how it’s do
I wish you didn’t judge
Like you never hold a grudge
Although I know things will never be the same
Ill forever try to bring glory to your name
Because you raised me all alone
I had no dad, just a stupid clone
Of the fucked up society
He tried to be all mighty
But I read through his crap
So even though me and my moms relationship is like a map
Very confusing and difficult at times
She’s the inspiration for my rhymes
She’s sacrificed so much for me
People can judge but they can’t truly see
How much she has done
She’s my early morning sun
She burns but she lights my world
I’d do everything for her, fit her mold
As best I could cause I owe that much
But my life is broken from such and such
So I hope she still has some forgiving left inside
Cause inside I have pretty much died
And I’m making mistakes and hurting those around
Sometimes I wish I would stop and lay to the ground
Change all that’s within my soul
Cause right now there’s only coal.
